We took the boys to the movies today. It was Aidan's first time and he did GREAT! We took them hungry and let them munch on popcorn.  The movie was pretty cute too.

 

I had another blow up with the MIL. What she does to make me feel is just not acceptable. Why does she think this behavior is ok???

 **The came up for the weekend at Jeremy's request so that the two of us could spend some time. They watched the boys at our house on Saturday and we went out. Movies, hotel, the works. It was great. We even sat at the table of our first data (coincidence, not planned). We had a great time. Got up today and drove home and got to the house about 9 a.m. I walked in the house and the boys were giving me hugs and stuff and they stopped me to show me their animal cage (they went to the zoo on Saturday). I wanted to go spend time with the inlaws so I tried to convince Logan to go too. I had asked him no more than 5 times before I yelled at him, "NOW!". I never even got to say hello before my MIL was storming out and not even looking me in the eye, let alone to say goodbye.***

 

For real? I swear there is an alien in her head telling me I"M the anti-christ or something. Jeremy reprimands the kids differently in front of his parents. I didn't realize we were supposed to... I don't abuse my kids. I yell at them occasionally. For some reason, that makes me the worst mommy in the world.

 

And ya know - I've got enough problems right now where I dont' feel good enough.  Did she have to make me feel like the worst mother on earth by throwing her own tantrum? Does she have to consistently put Jeremy in the middle of us? If my marriage is to stay solid - then I'm the one who has to bend and break to her will. It hurts me that she thinks I'm such a bad mother. I want to tell her to never come back. I never want to see her again. I want to tell her to go to hell. But I go back. I bend. I break a bit more each time I'm not good enough.