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26/01/2009 Cabin WeekendsHello all in blog-land (and Facebook now too!!) ~ This past weekend the family and I ventured to the in-laws house. I was only slightly apprehensive given the fact that this would be the 2nd time we’ve seen each other since the latest scuttle with my MIL. I think just the little bit of nervous that I did have was because we would be on her turf and not the ‘common ground’ we were on for Xmas (we met at a hotel in December). She’s said that we were welcome in her home to Jeremy but I’m still wary that the ‘we’ was for him and the kids, not ‘me’. I wanted to be with my family (all of them) and I think staying in the cabin made it easier on her and me. I think the weekend went swimmingly to be honest. I still grapple with the fact that she doesn’t like me …but to be honest…I’m not sure there are a lot of DILs out there who don’t worry about it. So, I guess that is normal? My MIL always does such sweet things for us when we come visit though. Jeremy and I stayed in a cabin next to their house (a very nice treat in itself…they have a couch-bed that does the job but can be hell on Jeremy’s back). We let the kids stay with the grandparents without our ‘watchful’ eye so-to-speak and in return – we got 2 blissful mornings to sleep in. It is so rare that Jeremy and I get to sleep in together that this made us ‘over-the-moon’. I can’t believe I slept as much as I did…but I still slept on the way home. I seem to get car-sick trying to read nowadays. It sucks. I swear it is a sign of my impending trek into the 30 and up club and I am none to happy about its closeness either!!! All in all we had a great weekend. For those of you who know us well enough to know that we were going – thanks for the well wishes. It really did go well, from our point of view. Jeremy and I even talked about sending the kids to their house this summer for a week a piece (he’d be fine with more but I’d miss them too much!!!). I can’t wait for Aidan to be able to catch his first fish with his Papaw like Logan did last summer. How cool would that be?? Govflygirl P.s. I just got an e-mail my from MIL - she enjoyed the weekend as much as we did - SCORE!!! P.p.s. I am becoming a Stampin' Up! Demonstrator the 1st of February. Come to MEEEE for all your stampin' neeeeeds :)~ 10/12/2008 Ballsy Maybe...Better HopefullySo Jeremy's mom called last night to relay a message from my BIL. We have caller ID so I knew it was her when I picked up. I don't like to go out of my way to be mean and/or ignore people. It's just not the way I'm built. We both seemed kinda nervous talking to each other but we got through it. It was decent.
Jeremy and his brother talked for a bit after that and we discussed some Xmas gifts for them and their Aunt Sue (she is so hard to buy for!). I decided to call the MIL back and ask about other things for Aunt Sue's Xmas gift. I had told Jeremy that I was feeling worried about the weekend and wanted to break the ice with his mom first. After we were done chatting about the gift(s) and stuff I asked her if we were going to be okay for the weekend. In the span of 2 minutes I made sure to let her know she was always welcome in our home (I don't really have a way with words, written or spoken, so it came out, 'No matter if we are bitching at each other or not, you are still always welcome in our home"), apologized for causing her so much stress, and said I'd do my best this weekend not to be so harsh with the boys (Jeremy and I are super strict, admittedly). As far as apologies go, I got a 'Me too'. I'm MORE than happy with it. It felt good to just talk to her a few minutes and clear that air before the weekend. I certainly had no intentions of our conversation going that far but it felt good anyhow. I hope, at a minimum, it enables us to have a good weekend...that they get to enjoy their grandkids and that her and I don't get all tangled up again. My FIL doesn't talk much to anyone (my MIL said that one!!!) so it should be fine there too.
Because I am an over analyzer, I did realize the one 'missing' part to our conversation. She never did extend the invitation to me for their house. I guess I'm okay with it. Maybe it will come with time, she and I aren't going anywhere, no need to push that!!! I know I can talk a good game and all...to write that I don't need them to like me but deep down I'll always want that. A majority of the reason being because it will make it easier on my boys...a small part of it for being selfish. My emotions rule me, maybe more than some, but I guess that is part of what makes me mine own unique 'human'.
My grandma on my dads side just died recently. When I went to see her I was a bit detached. The ties/bonds were not that strong. I didn't know her well. That bothers me a lot now that she is gone. I want more for my boys than that type of detachment. My MIL deserves more than that. My FIL used to take him and his brother to see his mom (the MIL and her don't get along) - Jeremy isn't as close to his paternal grandma either. I don't want that trend to carry in our family (for pragmatic reasons, or otherwise!).
This blog are mine own private thoughts (but I share them to help me cope and chronicle if you will)- I rarely sensor them so sometimes they may come out mean or hurtful. I never have stopped to think, until recently, that my MIL may actually be reading it (we've never talked about it!!!). This blog is my thoughts uncensored. I honestly doubt if I have many readers as I don't frequent other sites, but for those of you who do read it (my parents maybe??) I hope you enjoy the ride. Being Italian, my emotions run hot. It's part of our charm and our bane! I typically don't have a very good filter anyhow but here it is totally gone....for better or for worse.
So...Dee...if you're reading this...I apologize if any of it hurts your feelings, it isn't intentional.. It is my own therapy for the things that stress me in life (including the stress between you and I). I always wanted to be close to my inlaws, I hope that some day we can get there...that this 'shit' between us calms down and that we get over whatever it is that we do to each other.
Govflygirl (late for the damn gym again!) 4/12/2008 Turkey Day and ShoppingTurkey Day couldn't have been more pleasant!!! I am so glad that my brother convinced my Dad to come up. He always wants us to come visit him at their house (I think that's awesome but unrealistic, sorry Dad!!). It will be nice to entertain at our house this year for Xmas as well. My parents are coming up so they are there when the boys wake up Xmas morning. We'll be doing some traveling to the parents houses soon though :) Jeremy hasn't been to my parents house in a while either (not for any particular reason though...my parents adore Jeremy!).
For T-day we had all the trimmings and before we sat down for dinner we watched Polar Express together. The boys were so enthralled. I just love watching their reactions to stuff. I couldn't have asked for a better day. Oh - and we even had a fire in a REAL fireplace. The new house has been awesome for that - I am pretty sure it is one of Jeremy's favorite things along with entertaining here.
Jeremy went to see the inlaws Friday afternoon. Him and the boys had a GREAT time! I am so glad. Logan was also telling me about a Santa Parade that they went to. I wish I could have been there to see his eyes. I didn't go this time because Jeremy wanted to try and smoothe things over with his mom. I wanted to go though - but only because I didn't want to have to miss a moment of my time with my guys. I missed that smile, the excitement. I would have love to see Aidan's clear blue eyes sparkle with excitement...to hear Logan's excitement over seeing Santa for the first time this season. I don't want to miss it again.
We're going to PA to meet the inlaws and my BIL/SIL/niece for Xmas. I am actually looking forward to doing something so new with the kids. Glad I don't have to miss it. I choose not to stay home because my boys are what's important. I'd walk through fire for my boys (all 3 of them!) and if that means being around my FIL/MIL who don't like me then fine. I just hope that my MIL doesn't yell at me in front of them (she has before and BAD!), that's what gets me twisted up the most. They can leave all they want but I don't like how the boys are affected when they leave. It hurts their feelings too. This last time I think they were really confused about why my inlaws left so fast. My MIL kinda responds through emails but she just ends up lashing out hurtfully. I'm not sure if how my FIL and I deal with it is better (he basically hasn't talked to me in like 3 years!) but at least it is more peaceful. Less stressful.
Anyhooten - let me just get off that yuckie stuffs - did any of you all go shopping on Black Friday? Since I was home, I went to my parents house and did a lot of shopping for the kids. Spoiling the kids is fun - I'm glad we can do it. However, the budget crunch is still hitting us as well. We are only buying for immediate family this year because of it! I had such a good time with my fams though. My mom and I have a very close relationship and we had a good time together shopping on Friday night. We did a mom, dad, brother, sister shopping trip on Saturday. That was a bit weird though - like the old days. My mom even commented that she thought it was a bit weird too - 'You have your own family now, you should be with them! This is too weird!!' I totally agreed with her but besides missing my kids and Jeremy the whole weekend it was fun. My dad was even AWESOME to load up 2 wheelbarrows of wood for me in the rain. I tried to help but he wouldn't let me. We are drying it out in the garage now - it's hardwood. Jeremy also brought a bit of wood home from his rents house. I thought that was kinda kewl because it was wood that we had chopped with his aunt and now deceased uncle. We had spent a whole afternoon chopping it about 4 years ago - even had mountain cooked hotdogs that day. It was hard work but its a solid happy memory. He misses his Uncle and Grandma (both kinda recent) a lot around the holidays. Seems like his Grandma was the glue of the family and now that she's not around no one gets together.
What else?? Hrm...Weight is constant, I'm working on it though. I go to the gym WAY early in the morning so I don't miss time with the boys. If I don't go to the gym I miss them for how early I go to work anyhow. It's the only time I feel comfortable going. I don't want to miss my limited time in the evening with them - I'd rather be on the plump side! Speaking of - I went 2x's this week and was on my way out the door when I decided to blog this a.m. I just realized I hadn't in a while. Head up my rear trying to decorate and help Jeremy build a 'castle' bunkbed for the boys. It's hard because we aren't woodworkers!!!
I need to get ready for work now - oops - guess I'll just go to the gym tomorrow morning before my physical. I'm picking the kids up right after it and plan on taking them somewhere fun (after nap!). We've got lots of fun things planned for the weekend too. A friend is coming over early a.m. Saturday to work on Xmas cards and projects, then we are taking the kids to a birthday party. We are getting our family picture on Sunday, probably getting our Xmas tree, and we may even fit in a visit to Santa to drop off the Xmas lists the kids did (we had them pick pictures from the Toys R Us catalog and then helped them paste em' to a piece of paper!). Rightie-O - I'm getting on late after typing such a long blog!!!!
For all those that still check my blog for my delusional blatherings - hope you had an EXCELLENT Thanksgiving!!! And that your Xmas celebrations are even nicer!!!
Govflygirl
26/11/2008 Turkey DayNot sure what happened to change my parents minds - but they are coming for Thanksgiving. I am sooo excited. We weren't invited to anywhere this year so we invited people to our house. Come to think of it, I'm not sure Jeremy did invite his parents??
He has decided to go visit them for a short weekend and talk to them about the 'situation' and get the boys some time with their grandparents. However, this is the LAST time that he will be going alone. I honestly don't feel like I'm welcome in their home and with my MIL literally calling me delusional I don't know what to do/say around them! However, 'we' (Jeremy, Logan, Aidan, and I) are a package deal. We are a family and we come together. Jeremy and I are a united front. Not sure exactly what he is going to convey to his parents about it but I trust him. He 'assuages' a lot but I know this time that the message is simple. I'm done WANTING her to like me. Maybe we'll get along better now because of that simple fact. A girl can hope, right?
We had our upstairs heating unit/heater go last night :( We put a space heater in Logan's room, I slept with Aidan in our bed (UGH! He kicked me all night trying to wrangle OUT of the blankets!) and Jeremy slept on a futon downstairs. I'm working from home today to go to the boys T-day lunch at school. Going to have to deal with a repair man now!! LOL Oh well - it is what it is and I can do nothing about it really.
Be thankful for everything you DO have folks - these financial crises are VERY hard. I wish everyone luck and love for the turn around.
Govflygirl 9/11/2008 Madagascar 2We took the boys to the movies today. It was Aidan's first time and he did GREAT! We took them hungry and let them munch on popcorn. The movie was pretty cute too.
I had another blow up with the MIL. What she does to make me feel is just not acceptable. Why does she think this behavior is ok???
**The came up for the weekend at Jeremy's request so that the two of us could spend some time. They watched the boys at our house on Saturday and we went out. Movies, hotel, the works. It was great. We even sat at the table of our first data (coincidence, not planned). We had a great time. Got up today and drove home and got to the house about 9 a.m. I walked in the house and the boys were giving me hugs and stuff and they stopped me to show me their animal cage (they went to the zoo on Saturday). I wanted to go spend time with the inlaws so I tried to convince Logan to go too. I had asked him no more than 5 times before I yelled at him, "NOW!". I never even got to say hello before my MIL was storming out and not even looking me in the eye, let alone to say goodbye.***
For real? I swear there is an alien in her head telling me I"M the anti-christ or something. Jeremy reprimands the kids differently in front of his parents. I didn't realize we were supposed to... I don't abuse my kids. I yell at them occasionally. For some reason, that makes me the worst mommy in the world.
And ya know - I've got enough problems right now where I dont' feel good enough. Did she have to make me feel like the worst mother on earth by throwing her own tantrum? Does she have to consistently put Jeremy in the middle of us? If my marriage is to stay solid - then I'm the one who has to bend and break to her will. It hurts me that she thinks I'm such a bad mother. I want to tell her to never come back. I never want to see her again. I want to tell her to go to hell. But I go back. I bend. I break a bit more each time I'm not good enough. 5/11/2008 Historical?OKay - so I knew it was going to happen. But I can still be pissy about it.
I am NOT happy about our Presidential elect. and even more so about the 'headlines' announcing it. I think it is RIDICULOUS that they are concentrating on the fact that he is the 'FIRST' African-American that will be in office. This iS NOT what should be concentrated on. And the fact that it is just takes me back to the fact that all this election was - was a popularity contest and not who was best suited for the job. Yay - the country has resulted to high school politics....of which I have fought my entire life.
I am hope my husband is right and that Obama isn't the anti-christ. He may not be techinically of 'European' decent....but the 'fortune tellers' have been known to be a little off.
Hrmph.
My dristan seems to be working. I'm going back to my 'not so hopeful' bed.
I hope he can live up to this change and I'm totally wrong. Lets just spread that Dem love around. I will work my butt off for every lazy american tomorrow. Bed now.
Govflygirl 3/11/2008 Recent RecordHa! Two nights in a row. I am a blogging goddess.
And damnit if I didn't learn yet ANOTHER new thing about myself. I easily share things. Duh. Bloggers like to share shit. However, I like to share lots. And it's therapeutic to me for some reason. SO ...sew....I came back for another dose of dumping my shit on unsuspecting readers. Tada!
Tonights snippet is kinda cute though, IMO.
Being the somewhat unconventional parents we are...the hubby and I decided to show our toddlers 'shooting stars'. We didn't really catch any tonight (Wednesday is supposed to be a big star shooting night, we'll try again, I'm sure!). As I put the boys to bed, I decided to show Logan how pretty the crescent moon was. His new school is sure dumping a lot of good stuff in his sponge for a brain. He decided to tell me that the sun went down 'on the other side of the world' and that is why we could see the moon.
Damn proud I am :) I think I should go share it with the hubby too, no?
--Me 2/11/2008 DandelionsHello again blogland!!!
Not sure if anyone is still reading my space but I've been 'on the down slope' lately with my attitude so I thought I'd come back here and vent to the world and/or anyone who feels like reading it!! LOL
I don't know why I never made this connection (I'm an omniscent adult, right??) before...but...those little yellow weed dandelions that pop-up in the grass turn into the fun cute little annoying weed puff balls. Why did I never realize this?!?!? I feel dumb. I am an adult who has lots of adult stuff crammed into their brain. Why did I never notice or put this together??
Quick updates....
Logan - We had a dinosaur themed party at the local 'train' station near us. It is literally an amusement park ride outdoors and is SOOO stinkin' cute.
Aidan - He is such a stubborn/defiant boy right now - but I think it is the stage (18 months). He is a mamma's boy and his blue eyes melt me - just like Daddy's do.
Jeremy - Doing great in his job and has not come home complaining in a long time (used to a lot).
House - We did get it. But can I just tell you that writing an ESSAY while on vacation to get the darn thing was just funny. We've painted all of 2 rooms. And we are OUT of money to do anything else with the monster for now. We are going to build a 'castle bunk bed' in the kids toy room as our winter project. Will probably take a lot more than that though!
My work - EXCELLENT! Love the new job and still keeping in contact with my old folks as well. I am super critical of myself so I am constantly wondering if I'm doing enough and/or well. My boss is the 'hands off' kind so I worry.
Me - I've been kinda weird lately. Not able to cope for some reason with daily life. I started going to a counselor. I've only been one time but I'm going back again. Her 'general theme' for me that she picked out is my 'I'm not good enough' type attitude. Was a very interesting thought. We're going to 'explore' it and she's going to give me some 'depression' quiz or something like that the next time I visit. My weight and eating is out of control lately too. I've been getting to the gym about 3x's per week but it just keeps packing on :)~ We'll see. Got lots to work on for now (house, self, etc.).
Hope to hear from some of you folks again!
Mama of 2 with some issues!!! 8/07/2008 Job, House, and Bloody NapsHello Blogland! I know its been a long time again -but I've honestly been trying to be a good employee and not do blogging at work...then by the time I get home the topics have slipped my mind and there's so much to do that I just plain DON'T!!!
In any case - I've got 'short timers' at my current job seeing as how by 10 a.m. tomorrow I'll be signing out! I more or less got promoted from the subsidiary company to the corporate side. More responsibility and definitely a large increase (34%)!! Since getting my masters degree and my professional certification (RAC if your interested!) and then not getting any monetary benefit at my current position I started applying places. I really got lucky with this job though. My benefits will be different and more expensive but the increase amount more than takes care of those negatives. It will also help further my career. The job position is 'Regulatory Affairs Scientist' and I'll be doing more project management and writing than I do at my current job ('Regulatory Associate II'). My current company fought this transfer ('how can corporate do this????) instead of offering me something to stay. I'm pretty sure there was some sort of conspiracy going on about it because it almost didn't happen and I didn't get official paperwork until it was almost too late!
Coinciding with the new job - we found a house and got it under contract. In the world of the dipping economy - we've been very lucky these past two months. We have a buyer - they stuck it out - and now we scooped what was a foreclosure. The home is HUGE! I think we could literally fit 3 of our current homes in it (while cool sounding - this absolutely scares me !!!). I know the location and all that is going to be great (hubby only drives 10 minutes) but I am very scared about affording the damn thing. It is a lot of house for us. No deck, no fence, and no finished basement (which we may never need!!!). Don't know why the picture looks like that but you get the idea!!!
Logan (who turns three next month!!!) has caught our excitement and keeps asking to go to the 'big house' and that he wants to move all his toys over now. It's very cute. In preparation of the move in two weeks, the hubby switched our youngest, Aidan (15 month appointment today!), into a toddler bed at naptime yesterday! He took to it very well. Very surprised. I can't believe both my babies are out of cribs.
Speaking of naps/cribs, etc....On Sunday the boys went down for a nap - with some fussing of course. Had to go in and 'talk' with Logan to tell him to quit playing with his toys and go to bed. Well - what do most parents do when their kids are napping? Have fun, right? You get it, I'm sure. Next thing we know Logan is coming out of his room and we dash for the bathroom trying to 'hide' things. When he didn't come down right away we both got worried so we covered up as quick as we could - I turn the corner to the foyer stairs....and what do I see????
My little boy is standing there with blood ALLLL over his face, shirt, and hands - with a trail of it from his bedroom to where he is standing. He wasn't crying that hard - but I think that was mostly because he was scared out of his wits. Once we cleaned him up we realized the bleeding had mostly stopped anyhow. When he finally calmed down to tell us what happened???
Picking his nose to eat the boogers.
With a straw.
'The boogers are alll in my tummy mommy.'
Yum, right?
Govflygirl
10/06/2008 A month?I can't believe nearly a whole month has gone by since I've been to blog-land. Time is sure flying by in my house.
Things goings on:
What's going good (or bad) in your life? Govflygirl 14/05/2008 For Real?Stupid Parenting Award of the Century. I just got a notification that my pictures were pornographic in nature. I edited my photos to delete possible content. I was freaked out about this and a little disgusted that I didn't even consider pervs looking at my kids butt. Yuck.
Quick update:
I got my masters. We're trying to sell our house in a shitty market. Aidan is walking and has 9 teeth. Logan is a bright little boy who loves to challenge his mother with his independence. My husband finally got his promotion!
FTM
P.s. I can't believe I returned to blog-land because of kiddie-porn!! GACK!
P.p.s. My kids are handsome. I'll try and post a new photo soon. 6/11/2007 Repeat...Long Time No BloggieI'm afraid that until my thesis is done, I won't be frequenting my blog very often. Probably once a month when I download pictures from my digital camera.
Aidan:
He started to crawl this month. Amzingly and NOT because he has a cast on his leg - he crawls like a soldier...just like Logan did WITH a cast. He popped two teeth early in the month and is working on SEVERAL more at the moment. He really is a very different boy than his brother. He is not quite so accepting of strangers and will cy if you try to hand him off to someone he doesn't know. Since he started crawling and has gotten faster...he will let me know that he didn't want to be put down...by crawling after me. It is cute while I can still out run him :)
Logan:
Wow - what can I say about this little man? We are about 50% potty trained if you let HIM tell you when he has to go but about 99% if you keep him going even when he doesn't tell you. He wears big boy undies to 'school' now....and only one accident so far. He is working on his last 2 milk teeth - the top two molars and hasn't really caused too much fuss about them. His love for cars continues and he has now added dinosaurs to the list. I think for Xmas we might have to get all the sequels to the dinosaurs movies (land before time).
Me:
I'm down to a whopping 146. 8 pounds LESS than what Iwas before I got pregnant with Logan. I really want to lose the extra 16 but am not sure if I am just going to keep excercising and let my body be. I am addicted to food - so I am not sure I can do it to be honest. I would love to have that 'high school' body again - but alas I am almost 30 with two kids. I think maybe a dose of reality and self esteem might be in order! I am almost ready to start 'testing' people for my thesis - so if anyone reading this is a willing participant - PLEASE email me or leave a comment. I WILLLLLL hit you up for help! Work is great - except I am way underpaid. I am seeing people I got hired there get promotions and leave to make more money than I do. I don't feel justified leaving until my thesis is done though. Shame on me for takign so damn long - whatever happened to my 'ambition'?? Oh wait - it knocks on my door when I am sound asleep at 9:30 after my p.m. pumping time. I'm giving the ol' pump up probably a week or so before Xmas. The hubby and I are going to Scotland with out the kiddos and I refuse to be pumping in a foreign country when I have plenty frozen to make it to CLOSE to the 1 year mark for Aidan.
Hubby:
As amazing as ever. I got a dose of his morning routine and I now know he is an ADONIS father. I don't give him enough credit sometimes. I think changing roles sometimes is good. Maybe he'll get a dose of a wife for once, eh? (As long as it is before 9:30 p.m.!!!).
Sorry so short but alas, I have to get back tot he grind. My lunch is almost over (I get to work from home 1 day/week - which is actually allowing me the time to write this blog!)
Govflygirl
I'll be around eventually - I'm sorry I'm such a slacker. 6/10/2007 Long time no bloggieLike a fart in a whirlwhind still at my house.
Our saturn died. I guess two years with no payments isn't too bad - but we were definitely NOT ready for a new car. We had NO room for a payment with the daycare costs of two taking 1/4 of our total take home salary. We had no choice but to refinance our house to pay for the car :(
On the bright side...I now have a new car. A cute, red Toyota Prius. A 2008 to boot! This car will NOT become my husbands to drive. IT will be MINE to ruin. Yay for me. My first one in my 29 years of life. I get to ruin a car from the very start...all on my own.
Work news: I now officially commute 1 day per week from home. Wrote a contract and everything. Very exciting stuff...saves us nearly $500/year in gas when I stay home one day per week (while the hubby gets to drive my car...with the NO coffee rule - he spills like a 2nd grader!).
Logan news: We are getting along in potty training - some days better than others. We tried big boy pants today...to the tune of 4 puddles on the floor. A regression - but we'll survive.
Aidan news: He continues to grow and a very impatient but sweet personality is emerging. He also got one tooth this past Sunday and a second one on Thursday. His blue eyes captivate me...and I am SUPER excited that they are staying blue. His blue eyes and dark hair are awesome. A lot of people in the family call him 'little wade'. I can totally see my dad in him. I guess if you 'marry your father' you can also have little reproductions too??? LOL
Travel news: I met those crazy gals and the only problem I see is that I wish we all lived closer. We were fast friends and I miss them tons!!! I can't wait until we get together again...make it an official "RE"union. The Light the NIght Walk was amazing - but a little scary too. 2-2 year olds with no naps make for a fun experience!
Govflygirl
P.s. Hopefully it won't take me this long to come back again! 25/09/2007 Late Night Vent?Okay - because I'm tired Imagona vent (It's 3 a.m. I think I can!!!).
The boys both woke up tonight for what I believe is teething issues...Logan for his bottom right 2nd molar and Aidan for ...not sure which tooth yet. The hubby gets the boys since I have the super-power milking duties. Well, it was/is taking Aidan forever to fall back asleep. He had already drank the mini-bottle left out for late night emergencies. Because he was 'hyper' he started using milk I was trying to 'stack up' for when I'm gone this weekend. The kid was literally seconds away from falling asleep and now there is a warmed bottle that will go to waste. Yippee!
Hopefully Aidan will stay asleep - as I've sent Jeremy to bed and it's now time to pump.
Sorry its been so long to blog but I've been 'updating' a list of 100 for Logan - and everything else has been like a fart in a whirlwhind. Time goes by so fast when your little ones are this little apparently.
Govflygirl
P.s. I go to meet the ladies I met online when I was trying to get pregnant with Logan this weekend. Kinda neat. I've known these ladies for 3 years now - and we're finally gonna meet! 4/09/2007 Long Time...It's been a long time since I've blogged - and I'm pretty sure with good reason (which is NOT that I didn't have anything to write!). P.s. I have been GAINING on the weight loss front. I think I only gained 1 lb this month but I am totally disappointed and have been feeling pretty low lately. I am going to TRY and get back on track this month and lose a minimum of 5 lbs. Wish me Luck!!
Invite your mail contacts to join your friends list with Windows Live Spaces. It's easy! Try it! 11/08/2007 I Miss It!I've actually missed blogging lately. I've had TONS of topics to write about but no time to do it in!
Aidan has gone back to NOT sleeping through the night - he is waking about 1x a night. I think he got off schedule when he wasn't feeling well...having a temperature for a couple of days. Been hard to get him back on it because he sleeps in our room for now (he'll be moving after Logan's birthday/when he gets his new room) and keeps the other partner awake. Sigh - hard not to give in and give him a 'nip' of a bottle or what not.
Logan has been on a roller coaster of discovery again. He is saying soooo many new things - one of which has been to tell us that he 'misses' different things. 'I miss it! Wanna ride Train!', 'I miss Baaha!', etc. He says them at some surprising times too - just comes up with things and tells you what he wants. It's very cool. Just last night he told me he misses Abby (our friends' daughter) and wants to go swimming. We've only ever done this once and it was literally over a month ago almost. I can't believe the strides he is making in language. He doesn't pronounce things as well sometimes but is eager to try when you break the sounds up for him!
One more...
I am NOT going to miss pumping when I am done in December. I am NOT going to miss pumping in peoples' supply closests, in the car where perverts can peak, while the hubby is driving, in zoo health rooms. Really, I love the 'cheap' ness of breast feeding, the health benefit, and all the like. I will NOT miss a plugged duct (I had one about two weeks ago that sent me home from work - it was HORRID!).
Anyhow - Hello again everyone - and sorry it has taken me so long to write again (Cola - you better blog soon again too - I wanna see those Scotland pictures!!!).
Govflygirl
P.s. At Aidan's 4-month visit he was 17 lbs 6 ounces and 26 3/4" long. Already out of his infant seats!!! Good Lord that kid is growing like a weed on miracle grow!!! 22/07/2007 MeltdownsWe've had some 'meltdowns' in our household lately. The first one comes from the 'afternoon' poop sessions I've had with the boys on Wednesday and Thursday (hopefully not Friday as well!). The both literally got in the door and left me loads to clean up and out of their clothes. Yay fun. Not that I want them to grow up too fast but I am looking forward to the day when they can wipe their own butts. The second one comes from Logan allll by himself. He was having a GREAT time with his daycare provider, Ms.Tammy, when I picked him up yesterday. He was getting 'scared' and just giggling up a storm. Well he kept trying to drag her over to the room they had already closed for the day. I told Logan it was time to go so she respected that and didn't let him in the room....ON THE FLOOR SCREAMING, "NOOOOO!" He was being so mean to Ms. Tammy and screaming like a rotten little kid. If it had been our house he would have got a swift smack on the bottom. However, he did get the '1-2-3' count. He didn't say he was sorry prior to 3, but promptly said it AFTER I said 3. The punishment, you ask? No cars for the night...movie and toys. OoOhh boy he didn't like that much at all. He'll learn from this...I hope! The third one comes from 'routine' habits. Ever since Aidan had been 'diagnosed' with Thrush we began boiling his bottle nipples every night (*sigh* what a pain in the butt!). Well last night we got them in the pot...and forgot about them...until...we smelled something burning. All the water was gone and they were starting to MELT on the bottom of the pot. Can I just tell you...replacing 8 bottle nipples to the tune of $1.75 a piece is NOT fun??? You'd think we were newbs at this or something. Guess you learn something new with every kiddo, huh? Never should a parent assume that they ...'know it all'. This weekend I'm going to see the latest Harry Potter movie and read the book with my gal pals. Jeremy is watching the kids. I'm sure I'll miss them TERRIBLY but I'm going to have a blast too :) Have a good one ebby body! Govflygirl Don't get caught with egg on your face. Play Chicktionary! 10/07/2007 EATING!!!Oh my garsh - they grow too fast.
At dinner tonight, my little one, Aidan....was intently watching his brother eat dinner. I gave him a little taste of the sweet corn 'juice' and he smacked it up. So we tried a small bowl of rice cereal mixed with the good ol' breast milk - and he ate the WHOLE bowl. What a little hungry chunk :)~ I know it's before 4 months and all - but those are just guidelines, right??? LOL He wanted it so I gave it to him :)
Gotta get 'im ready for bed!
Tata;
Govflygirl 29/06/2007 Sleeping....and ShadowSunday night marked a momentous event in little Aidan's life. He slept through the night with a total of nearly 10.5 hours of sleep! It was GREAT sleep for both the hubby and I (even if I did have to get up and pump at 3 a.m. still!). He has also continued to sleep through the night so far this week (it's now Thursday!). What a little ham!
Logan, however, had a bad diaper incident yesterday. He did the ol' #2 and let it sit there...we tried going for a walk and he got bad diaper rash (we didn't know it was there until he decided he had to go again and thought it would be fun to pee in the bushes...i pulled down the drawers to a NICE surprise. Needless to say, the walk ended SUPER early!). When he peed in his diaper at 3:15 a.m. he wouldn't go back to sleep unless I got him a potty break, a fresh diaper, scratched his back, and ...yup...he got me to snooze on his floor until he fll back asleep. Spongebob stuffed toy isn't quite big enough to be an adult pillow...just so you know!
Govflygirl
P.s. My mom is watching Logan in the city I work today (Thursday). I got to go to Chucky Cheeses with them. Logan is too small for the tube system (or at least we thought so). We let him roam and lost sight of him for 2 ever lovin' seconds and he was half way up the tube!!! He figured it out even if he was too short. I was sooo proud. Thank goodness that Lisa (my husbands friends brothers wife!) was there. Her daughter helped get Logan down when we were ready to leave. I was definitely proud of my little man 'overcoming' the obstacle of being too short for something. Kudos little man!
Shadow
Our dog has NOT been doing well. On top of getting spayed in January and find out she had Lime's Disease in March...we have just found out that she has 'pancreatic insufficiency'. It is basically a suspected genetic disorder in which around a year and a half you start to notice that the pancreas isn't functioning or is non-existant. Our beautiful dog of 86 pounds is down to 56 this week...and after seeing xrays of very odd things in her belly (rocks, grout?, and a staple) we opted for exploratory surgery. When they were 'exploring' things - they found that the area of the pancreas that is next to the doudenum which is supposed to 6-8" long was non-existant. The 'tail' that is supposed to be next to her stomach - only remnants existed and what was there was 'abnormal'. I guess the good news (after $1300 of diagnostic work and a lot of pain on our puppy's part) is that we know what her 'issue' is now. She will have to have an enzyme supplement in her food for the rest of her life. This amounts to about $85/month in medicine. I have kept the breeder in the loop the whole time (well since the ER visit last friday) and amazingly enough she is going to refund half the price of our dog. I really dont' care too much about this - but the fact that she was willing to do it means she cares about her dogs as much as we care about our Shadow. Not alot of breeders are willing to do that!!! So - if anyone ever wants to get a Great Pyr...I HIGHLY recommend my breeder. She cares so much. Go Lucky G Ranch - thank you so much for our beautiful and sweet Shadow. Please keep our puppy in your prayers and hope that the enzyme treatment starts working SOON!! We need to fatten this girl up! :)
P.p.s. Since I'm home watching/caring for the pooch this weekend, the hubby went to the inlaws himself. I'm really sad to be away from all three of my boys. My husband is helping his brother build a garage roof and his brother asked us not to bring the dog. A little selfish/uncaring if you ask me - but we had to respect that decision. In the end, travelling with her probably wasn't a good idea anyway. I cried when they left though. It is hard to love this much and watch your life drive away in one car...even if they are coming back on Sunday!!! God - its' hard.
P.p.p.s. Shadow and I will be getting lots of sleep tonight ;0 24/06/2007 Shakes...When I kinda of bounce/shake Aidan - he giggles. He was sitting in his boppy today and he seemed kinda gassy. So I put my hand under his legs (a discovery of the hubbies) and start bouncing his legs. He thought this was pretty funny. I then put my palm on his chest and kinda 'pounced' him a little bit. Oh man...his giggles are AWESOME!!! We caught a bit of it on video which I'll be posting at the end of the month.
On a more serious note - if you haven't read about it yet...please take a moment to read about Baby Kaleb. He needs your prayers. He is a survivor of SBS. His story actually got me to go to my daycare provider and let her know that I am uncomfortable with one of her employees. I feel better for having been 'enlightened' myself and I only hope this little boy keeps up the good work!!! SBS is NO JOKE!!! NEVER SHAKE A BABY! IF YOU HAVE TO - LEAVE THE ROOM!!!! TAKE A FIVE MINUTE BREAK AND COME BACK! THEIR LIVES ARE NOT WORTH THE SILENCE!
Govflygirl
P.s. You know you're getting older when your son points at your 'cute new purse' and says at the top of his lungs, "GRANDMA!!!!!" *sigh* |
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